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*Smack*

That's me, officially hitting The Wall. The Wall of six plus months solid of work with only a couple three-day weekends, two plus months solid of taking care of my mom while she was in the hospital, rehab facility, and now in home healthcare, who-the-hell-knows how many years months solid of banging on a novel whose plot and World still continue to elude me in many ways and...

well, everything else.

I am sick, and I am tired.

I took one sick day earlier this month to "shake" this off, and then I had to do it again yesterday.

So totally, totally should have scheduled a real vacation earlier than I did. Of course, my idea of a "real" vacation is a two-week long staycation with a recliner and Netflix and a computer on my lap, still banging on that novel. I don't know how to take a break from it. I keep going back to it, whether the work I do on it is productive or not. I know it's my control freak tendencies. Which I get from my mother. And if I didn't know this before, I do now. She has been cut off from the usual avenues of daily life of late, and so she keeps needling me to take care of all the things she can't control--my elder nephew, a late bill that somehow didn't get paid, people she needs to contact, etc, etc.

And my vacation, when it comes, doesn't promise to be any sort of break from responsibility. There are trains to catch and tours to get to and most of that is left up to the Sculptor and me instead of a tour company. I think I have every detail worked out, 'cause that's what I do.

But right now? Stop the world, I want to get off for a bit.

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ann1962
Jun. 25th, 2013 08:01 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry there is so much going on. ::hugs:: Feel better asap.
masqthephlsphr
Jun. 25th, 2013 08:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks, V. Sounds like you have quite a bit going on yourself.
ann1962
Jun. 25th, 2013 09:03 pm (UTC)
Other than the car accident stuff, so much better for now, it's a mostly wait and see game. With Scarlet's college stuff coming up, that is taking most of my mental space. It is either completely on, or completely off. I'm resting between ons LOL!
masqthephlsphr
Jun. 25th, 2013 09:11 pm (UTC)
Resting is something I need to learn how to do.
ponygirl2000
Jun. 25th, 2013 08:51 pm (UTC)
Hope things get better.
masqthephlsphr
Jun. 25th, 2013 09:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks Pony
cornerofmadness
Jun. 26th, 2013 01:48 am (UTC)
good luck finding time to destress
masqthephlsphr
Jun. 26th, 2013 02:05 pm (UTC)
No kidding, lol. Thanks.
midnightsjane
Jun. 28th, 2013 05:36 am (UTC)
You've had a tough year. I hope you can manage to just enjoy your holiday and go with the flow! R&R, with the emphasis on the resting!
masqthephlsphr
Jun. 28th, 2013 12:13 pm (UTC)
After the non-stop rushing around of my vacation south of the border in 2011, I made sure we had "down time" every day on this trip's itinerary. We are taking trains from The Netherlands to Germany to Switzerland, and most of our tours are 3-4 hours instead of all day.

Next year will be a mellow, one-week vacation at more domestic locales: Seattle and Vancouver, BC.....
midnightsjane
Jun. 29th, 2013 03:38 am (UTC)
Vancouver can be very restful, I hear.
;P
masqthephlsphr
Jun. 29th, 2013 05:56 pm (UTC)
You still in the same place with that awesome patio?
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