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quixotic_crush gave me seven topics to expound on: books, vampires, philosophy, music, LGBTQ rights, geeks, fantasy. Warning: me and memes are unmixy things. I give them way too much thought. So I will attempt brevity.

Books: As a kid, I was a BIG reader. Won all those summer how-many-books-can-you-read contests at the library. My first paying job was at the library. Every time I moved, half of what I moved was boxes of books. When I bought my current house, the first thing I had done was have a carpenter build 8-foot high bookcases to surround the walls of my little nook. That said, I hardly read at all anymore (except interweb stuff, and the latest Dresden Files novel). I don't know why, exactly. I tried audio books in the car, thinking it was just a case of finding the time, but that fizzled out, too. This started shortly after I finished my PhD, and I thought it was "reading fatigue" from grad school. But that was a while ago now, too long to be a good excuse anymore. This sort of breaks my heart, 'cause I don't know how to fix it.

Vampires: I don't think I have a "vampire" thing, although I do have most of the Anne Rice Vampire Chronicles, and the Angel and Forever Knight box sets. I suppose, in my case, it's an extension of the "hidden alternative subcultures" story kink I have.

Philosophy: I'm an INTJ: analytical, abstract, and expansive is just the way we roll.

Music: Alas, this is like reading. I was totally into classic rock and alternative/punk/new wave as a kid, and then suddenly, out of the blue, I lost interest in listening to music recreationally. I have an iPod with all my old favorites on it that I hardly ever use. But due to my brane being my brane, I almost *always* have a song stuck in my head. Usually some ditty I wasn't even aware I was hearing the last time I was in Walgreens.

LGBTQ rights: I find the entire concept archaic. The only "rights" we should be talking about in regards to people are human rights: freedom, personal dignity, health. And by the first I mean, borrowing from the Wiccans: "An it harm none, do what ye will." Unfortunately, judgments of "harm" are a matter of debate, and there are people out there who think I am harming something--the fabric of society? [Some socially-constructed understanding of] the family? by acting on my romantic attachments towards women. So that debate makes the very concept of "rights" for such singled-out groups a meaningful concept. I wish it didn't, but it does.

Geeks: I will quote my wise friend [personal profile] scrollgirl here: "Geeky is just shorthand for enthusiastic and enlightened." To be a geek is to have a passion for something that makes you want to have a comprehensive knowledge of it--practical or theoretical or both--for the pure joy of doing so.

Fantasy: I am assuming this means the literary/entertainment genre, as opposed to "Masq is directing movies in her head, again." I have an odd relationship with the genre, because I am at heart an empiricist, a scientist, an agnostic, and a cautious skeptic. "Cautious" because I think some self-identified skeptics have a tendency to make assumptions about the non-existence of things that are as unsupported due to lack of evidence one way or another as those who believe easily. Here's another borrowed quote: "I want to believe"--in ghosts, magic, alien visitation, what have you. But I don't. I don't disbelieve, either. I have simply seen no evidence that convinces me these things are real, or that convinces me they're not. But I want to live in a world where some of it is real. Where there's more than just the dry, physicalist universe of the current scientific worldview. But because I can't just make a leap and decide I *do* live in such a world, I cling to fantasy fiction, especially stories where the world looks more or less like the one I see around me everyday, but these fantastic things are hidden from view but very real. 'Cause that makes it easier to imagine they might just be real.



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scrollgirl
Mar. 10th, 2012 10:34 pm (UTC)
Hee! I love it when you quote me. *g*

Also, I totally understand your dilemma with regard to reading. I thought it was "reading fatigue" as well, though considering the hours and late nights I waste on reading fanfic, that can't possibly be the reason. But (new) original pro fiction hasn't appealed to me in a long, long time--besides Harry Potter, and even that I read with a rather fannish mindset--and it's rather distressing because of all the terrific books I'm missing out on. I don't even know where my library card is.
masqthephlsphr
Mar. 10th, 2012 11:07 pm (UTC)
I actually was reading more when I borrowed my books from the library like I did in San Francisco than I do now when I pretty much buy them if I plan to read them.

I can find the old avid reader in me when the book/main character is really compelling, like last summer when I got into the Millenium series by Steig Larrsen (Girl With the Dragon Tattoo), but it seems I have no patience for reading if the book doesn't hit more than one of my specific "story kinks". It's like it has to feed me emotionally on that level or I won't take the time anymore. And it's a lot of work to know ahead of time a story will do that.
cactuswatcher
Mar. 10th, 2012 10:35 pm (UTC)
I found when I first really wanted to write, that my desire to read dropped like a rock. I still don't read much fiction anymore. Of things written in the past 20, I've got Harry Potter and a little sci-fi, and almost nothing else.

I think I stopped listening to music when I got a job out of grad school. I've always liked classical and I have the university radio station on now and then. But, it's usually to keep me from getting bored while driving rather than for the purpose of listening anymore.
masqthephlsphr
Mar. 10th, 2012 11:10 pm (UTC)
Music distracts me. It's evocative and makes my mind instantly wander. I can't listen to it (or hear someone else's) when I want to concentrate, which is pretty much most of the time at work or at home when I'm writing.

And writing is the number one culprit I'll blame for my lack of reading. Writers should read, because it feeds the muse and the technical gift, but reading sucks time away from writing, and ironically, you just stop doing it.
quixotic_crush
Mar. 11th, 2012 05:09 am (UTC)
I'm the same way when it comes to reading. I used to love reading so much and read anything I can get my hands on. Now, just reading my flist can be a chore. lol

I'm INFJ. We almost the alike except I feel all of the feels.

And as an agnostic myself, I understand where you're coming from. I could never be an outright atheist because there are too many things I want to believe in and want to be real.
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